I've lost my eating appetite lately, but still.. I haven't lose a single weight!

Gahhh.. this is so frustrating. Why is this happening to me???? I can't stand seeing myself in the mirror. Eeek! Scary! OK, I'm not THAT fat, just.. not slim. Hahahaha. I need to do something about my weight.

Exercise is not something I'd like to try.. I'm too lazy for that. :P

Is there a miracle pill or something? One that I pop into my mouth, do nothing and still lose weight? LOL If you know one, PLEASE do tell!

I'm so sick of my weight. I'm so tired of seeing myself as a plump woman in the mirror. I've tried almost every possible thing. Slimming pills, Indonesian jamu, exercise.. but still, my weight remain the same. As if being plump is not enough, my weight seem to gain even more. Of course, I did lose some weight.. but that wasn't enough. I want to lose MORE and FAST. :(

So today, I decided to do what I did before as a teenager.

I made a self-induced vomitting.

I threw up the food I had for lunch.

Did it felt good? Not really.. in fact, I'm feeling a lil hungry right now. But for the sake of losing weight, I'd try anything. Even to the point of making myself bullimic, once again.

Labels: desperate to lose weight

I'm so sick of looking myself in the mirror.

I want to have the old me. No, I want to have a brand new me. A different me.

I want to be skinny.

I Googled "How to be anorexic" last night, and to my surprise.. I couldn't find any. :( I know, this is so unhealthy of me. But it's so depressing at the same time - being overweight and not having confidence in myself. I think of myself as an ugly person when I'm.. fat. Gosh, I couldn't even bring myself to say that "FAT" word. I hate that. I weigh 65kg and I am so disgusted with myself.

Maybe a biscuit a day could help me lose weight.

Damn this gastric of mine. If it wasn't because of it, I would've been able to starve myself to my ideal weight.

*sigh*

Labels: I want to be anorexic

I've been scrubbing the floor and walls of my bathroom last night, and today, I woke up to an achy legs. Both legs. Walking down the stairs was no problem, but getting UP the stairs is! It's like a major torture just walking up, like I just did a 10km marathon and ended up with achy legs.

Is that normal? LOL! All I did was scrubbings.

I hope this is a good sign that my muscles are stretching and managed to burn a few unwanted fats. *giggle*

Hehehehe... I just read an article on the Net that said jumping on jumping ropes it the fastest way to burn your calories off.

Wow. I purchased a Nike jumping rope like months ago, yet only used them once. I guess it's time to get back in shape and start doing a jump rope. :D

Labels: exercise, health, jump rope