I'm so sick of my weight. I'm so tired of seeing myself as a plump woman in the mirror. I've tried almost every possible thing. Slimming pills, Indonesian jamu, exercise.. but still, my weight remain the same. As if being plump is not enough, my weight seem to gain even more. Of course, I did lose some weight.. but that wasn't enough. I want to lose MORE and FAST. :(

So today, I decided to do what I did before as a teenager.

I made a self-induced vomitting.

I threw up the food I had for lunch.

Did it felt good? Not really.. in fact, I'm feeling a lil hungry right now. But for the sake of losing weight, I'd try anything. Even to the point of making myself bullimic, once again.

Labels: desperate to lose weight