Ethelwenn's Episodes

I Need To Lose Weight Fast!

2007-08-14T04:41:00.000+08:00

I've lost my eating appetite lately, but still.. I haven't lose a single weight!

Gahhh.. this is so frustrating. Why is this happening to me???? I can't stand seeing myself in the mirror. Eeek! Scary! OK, I'm not THAT fat, just.. not slim. Hahahaha. I need to do something about my weight.

Exercise is not something I'd like to try.. I'm too lazy for that. :P

Is there a miracle pill or something? One that I pop into my mouth, do nothing and still lose weight? LOL If you know one, PLEASE do tell!

I Did Something Bad..

2007-07-19T19:22:00.000+08:00

I'm so sick of my weight. I'm so tired of seeing myself as a plump woman in the mirror. I've tried almost every possible thing. Slimming pills, Indonesian jamu, exercise.. but still, my weight remain the same. As if being plump is not enough, my weight seem to gain even more. Of course, I did lose some weight.. but that wasn't enough. I want to lose MORE and FAST. :(

So today, I decided to do what I did before as a teenager.

I made a self-induced vomitting.

I threw up the food I had for lunch.

Did it felt good? Not really.. in fact, I'm feeling a lil hungry right now. But for the sake of losing weight, I'd try anything. Even to the point of making myself bullimic, once again.

That Woman In The Mirror

2007-07-16T16:44:00.000+08:00

I'm so sick of looking myself in the mirror.

I want to have the old me. No, I want to have a brand new me. A different me.

I want to be skinny.

I Googled "How to be anorexic" last night, and to my surprise.. I couldn't find any. :( I know, this is so unhealthy of me. But it's so depressing at the same time - being overweight and not having confidence in myself. I think of myself as an ugly person when I'm.. fat. Gosh, I couldn't even bring myself to say that "FAT" word. I hate that. I weigh 65kg and I am so disgusted with myself.

Maybe a biscuit a day could help me lose weight.

Damn this gastric of mine. If it wasn't because of it, I would've been able to starve myself to my ideal weight.

*sigh*

Acky, Breaky Leg

2007-07-05T04:35:00.000+08:00

I've been scrubbing the floor and walls of my bathroom last night, and today, I woke up to an achy legs. Both legs. Walking down the stairs was no problem, but getting UP the stairs is! It's like a major torture just walking up, like I just did a 10km marathon and ended up with achy legs.

Is that normal? LOL! All I did was scrubbings.

I hope this is a good sign that my muscles are stretching and managed to burn a few unwanted fats. *giggle*

Skip Yourself To A Slimmer You

2007-06-26T03:53:00.000+08:00

Hehehehe... I just read an article on the Net that said jumping on jumping ropes it the fastest way to burn your calories off.

Wow. I purchased a Nike jumping rope like months ago, yet only used them once. I guess it's time to get back in shape and start doing a jump rope. :D

I'm Determined

2007-06-07T02:16:00.000+08:00

When you went on a shopping spree and you noticed that your favorite store have not but small-sized clothes for you - you know that it's time to lose some weight!

LOL.

So, I hereby announce that I am gonna save up some money and get myself into those slimming centers. In fact, I've already have one on my mind. Marie-France Bodyline.

*fingers crossed*

Too Tired?

2007-05-26T12:35:00.000+08:00

My eyes hurt so much these days, it feels dry and tired all the time.

Is it because of my lack of sleep?
Too much air conditioner in the room?

I don't know.

I hate this. I wouldn't be able to wear my contact lens like this, and I hate having to wear my glasses. It makes me look so old! LOL!

I Have Been Busy

2007-05-23T05:33:00.000+08:00

Wow, I haven't been updating my blog for a while. It's been hectic these days that I could hardly find a time to sit and blog about myself.

I was planning to go on a mini trip with a friend last weekend, but due to hectic schedule, work and other stuff, the plan was canceled. I must say that I am a bit disappointed.. Oh well, maybe some other day...

The string bracelet that my aunt gave me finally broke today. :( I've been wearing it everyday for the past 4 years and I still couldn't believe that it broke. I was taking my shower when I noticed the string were twisted a bit, so I rolled it to fix it up, unfortunately it broke. :( I'm still trying to get use to seeing my hand without that bracelet.

Oh, what a day.

I Need To Lose Weight

2007-05-18T00:30:00.000+08:00

My weight is starting to worry me.

I compared my old photos and my current photos, and I think I look huge!! This cannot go on for long, something needs to be done before Christmas!

I'm already thinking of going for the slimming centre, Marie-France Bodyline maybe. Oh dear, time to save some moolah and lessen my online shopping activity for it. :(

I must, MUST look good for Christmas. :D

p/s I'm too lazy to exercise, so that wouldn't be an option. *giggle*

There's Definitely Something Wrong With Him..

2007-05-15T16:59:00.000+08:00

An ex sent me a text message on my cellphone yesterday. He wanted me to loan him some cash, since he's out of job for a month. Apparently, he got a better offer from another place. The stupid thing was, the new job only starts next month. Now I don't understand WHY didn't he saved some money before even thinking of quitting his job?!!

Of course I ignored his text message.

This morning, he sent me another. This time with a note that says:

"All I'm asking is a helping hand. If you're sorry for me or sympathy of the situation, don't be. This will be remembered."

LOL!!! I mean, how stupid can he be?? What makes him think I would EVEN wanna lend him some cash in the first place?!! Not only he's my EX, he is also the person who left me for another woman - and now he's crawling back for some help? The hell I'm giving him a help. I asked him to get the cash from his new girlfriend, he replied "She has her own commitment." Oh really? Well, I'm sorry to break this to you but I HAVE MY OWN COMMITMENT TOO and lending a helping hand to my ex is definitely NOT in my list of things to spend my money on.

Happy Mother's Day

2007-05-13T12:50:00.000+08:00

For my beloved mommy, J,

A blessed Happy Mother's Day to you, dearest mom. You're the best mother one could ever wish for and I am thankful to have you as my mother. I'm sorry I couldn't be there on your special day to hand you flowers.. but know that you are always in my thoughts and prayers.

Mom, I'm going to give you that vacation I know you'd love and I promise you!

I love you mommy, from the bottom of my heart. God bless. :)

Give Masterseek To Your Business

2007-05-13T12:25:00.000+08:00

For all the new business companies out there, you might want to add masterseek in your agenda too. Masterseek is a global search engine that provides quick and free access to company profiles, contact information, and descriptions of products and services from more than 45 million companies in 75 countries. You would also get to search in your own country or worldwide and find business partners, sales opportunities and new avenues for the expansion of your business. You could also sign-up your company with Masterseek and gain more exposure for your company, opening your business' name to the eye of the global community.

What Goes Around Comes Around

2007-05-12T17:22:00.000+08:00

I like this song a lot that I decided to have it over here so I could come back and listen to it over and over if I want.

Pretty cool that I could post YouTube in this blog. :D

I'm A Bloggerwaver!

2007-05-12T04:32:00.000+08:00

Wow, I'm so excited about this whole Paid Post thingy. I know a couple of my friends are doing it and I thought, why not try it myself?

So now, here I am. I've registred my blog with Bloggerwave and within a few minutes it got approved! It's THAT fast! *jumps in excitement* Now what is Bloggerwave all about? Simple, it's a program that pays you to blog or review certain product listed in their website. And if your post got approved, they'll pay you through PayPal - whatever you want to do with the money is up to you. Go shopping online maybe. :) As for me, I might use it to buy my favorite digital camera that I saw on the web not too long ago.

Friday's Feast

2007-05-12T03:05:00.000+08:00

Appetizer
Tell about a time when you had to be brave.

It would be when I got lost in the big city of Kuala Lumpur many years ago. I had only be in Kuala Lumpur for 2 days, barely known the streets and places. I went to see the Commonwealth Games and by 1AM, I took a bus and went home. I dropped at a bus station that looked familiar and I was totally lost couldn't find my way back home! I was extremely scared, being a girl walking alone in the streets. I braved myself through the streets and I finally found my way!

Soup
Which upcoming movie are you excited about seeing?

Pirates of The Caribbean!!

Salad
Name an item you try to always have on hand.

My cellphone.

Main Course
Imagine the most relaxing room you can think of. Now describe it!

My parents' bedroom. LOL! Somehow, their room feels soooo comfortable. I love the ambience, the color, the look, the bed.. everything! I love the smell of their bedsheet. I could fall asleep easily on their bed, feeling like a baby once more.

Dessert
On a scale of 1 to 10 (10 being highest), how spiritual or religious are you?

7. It used to be 10, until I moved to another city..

The First Post

2007-05-11T23:21:00.000+08:00

My first post in my brand new blog.

I think I'm gonna like it here.